WARNING: I am going to share something with you- the power of prayer. SO, if you don't believe in the power of prayer, just stop reading NOW, ok?
For the rest of you who keep reading, this is ABSOLUTELY TRUE- I'm just as stunned as can be but I'm also feeling so connected right now. I have always believed in the power of prayer, but sometimes we get such a moment that totally connects with us, that makes us stand up and open our eyes, our hearts, and our souls. Sometimes, it is something very simple....and sometimes it is great big huge.
I am going through a time when I'm not sure of the direction I'm supposed to take. I've been a teacher all my life and that is what feels very comfortable to me. I recently left the profession because, in the words of Caroline Myss, "I am moving from my career to my passion." So, what am I passionate about? It's really pretty simple- domesticity and somehow connecting with others in that realm. Cooking, decorating, crafts, writing, holidays, you get the idea. I love it all. I've wanted a bed and breakfast for a long time and we've been earnestly looking; however, we have to sell OUR home before we have the ability to move onto something else. It was for sale about a year and a half ago and the market collapsed. I always want to show it when it looks 'perfect' so oftentimes, I'd stay up half the night when I'd get a call about a showing to have it looking so. I'd light candles, bake cookies, put on a fresh pot of coffee. Nothing, not even an offer. What finally put me over the edge was about three calls where I went through all the preparation and then it was a 'no show.' not even a call. I worked long hours as an English teacher; I also did the yearbook and the newspaper and there were deadlines, teacher meetings, parent-teacher conferences. I told myself that maybe it wasn't meant to be. At least for the time I asked that we take the house off the market- I was tired of it all.
The yearning for 'something else,' however, did not go away, but some new inspirations have been entering my spirit. I'll discuss that more later, but I have come to a place where I 'know' the house has got to get sold. My mom told me to put 'St. Joseph' in the ground upside down in the yard. She's moved a bunch in her life and she's been very lucky in selling her houses. I drove into town about 4 months ago looking for the Catholic store but could not find it. Finally, I went on ebay and bought a statue of St. Joseph. By the way, my father's name is Joseph and my granddaughter's name is Josephine. My father passed away when I was 20. I know in my heart he has helped me time and time again--I feel his presence all the time. Anyway, the statue arrived and I put it on the kitchen counter and pretty much ignored it for about the past 4 months. When we came back from New England, I decided one day to 'just do it' so I went outside and put St. Joseph in the ground--last night, I was having 'one of those moments' and was kind of gloomy, so I began to pray and I asked for direction in what I am supposed to do. I went to bed.
This morning, around 9:30 am, the phone rang. The woman on the other end said. "Hello, my name is Elizabeth and I live in California. About a year and half ago, I came to Colorado with my husband to look for a house. We didn't find one but we did drive by yours and took a flyer. I can't get it out of my mind. My daughter lives in CO and we're here for the weekend and would like to come and take a look at it. Is it still available?"
Well, if she and her husband and her daughter and her grandchildren DO show up, that visit is supposed to be around 3 tomorrow afternoon. I'll let you all know what happens. What happens, however, is not the point. At least for me, I got a message that I'm supposed to let go of what I have right now in order to see what is ahead for me. That is scary, but I asked for direction, and the phone rang. What do you think? Personally, I think God is wonderful and I am forever grateful for His presence in my life. Thank you all for reading- sorry for rambling; I'm typically not a 'preacher' type, but the call this morning rocked my world.
Well, I'll probably be up most of the night getting ready- we just had work done on the house and there is dirt/wood shavings/sawdust everywhere! Hubby said that if nothing else, we'll get a jump start on the Holiday cleaning! Hugs to all of you!!
Sweet girl, I know EXACTLY where you are right now! You are indeed on the verge of discovery, of God leading you by the hand to the place He wants you. I know this because I am there, have been there, for months. I thought I was losing all that was dear to me - but God had other plans. He has not only restored what I 'lost', but has given me SO much more than I ever expected. Prayer and faith and hope are what sustain us and CHANGE US - enabling us to see where God is trying to lead. I am praying for you, and know that God is faithful to not only give us the desires that abide in our hearts, but to GIVE US those desires in life, in order to serve Him.
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Deb @ Retreat
I'm all teary now after reading your post. God does move in mysterious ways. I do believe in the power of prayer.
ReplyDeleteWhen my husband was digging a trench for a new lightpost out front of our house he found St. Joseph buried upside down. Our house we bought was on the market for a long time and needed a lot of work. When I saw it I knew this was where we were suppose to be so St. Joseph must have been doing his job.
We have to learn to listen so we can hear when our prayers are answered. Sounds like you have a good connection. Thank you for sharing!
Sandy